“Old friends pass
away, new friends appear. It is just like the days. An old day passes, a new
day arrives. The important thing is to make it meaningful: a meaningful friend-
or a meaningful day.” ~ Dalai Lama
When you hear the term cancer it tends to scare and frighten
because there seems to be a lack of understanding. One can become a defeatist
and wallow in defeat and succumb to the worst thoughts. Thoughts to me can become
cancerous. It can eat away at the very core of your being. It is the worm to the apple as one word
thought, which weaves and deceives the brain.
A thought develops from our senses in what we experience and
from the experience produces feelings. Feelings are the yin to the yang of
thoughts. They feed off of each other and if there is no control; you seem to
be going round in round. That is the symbol of the yin and yang.
There is a Cherokee Native American legend about two wolves.
One wolf is good and does no harm. He
lives in harmony with all around him, and does not take offense when no offense
was intended. He will only fight when it is right to do so, and in the right
way. The other wolf is full of anger. It is helpless anger, for his anger will
change nothing. Sometimes it is hard to live with these two wolves, for both
try to dominate the Cherokee spirit. A boy asked his Grandfather, “Which one
wins?” The grandfather replied, “The one I feed.”
Let this be an encouragement from someone that is diagnosed
with cancer. Live life to the fullest by feeding the wolf that is good. When we
feed into fear, anger, jealousy, guilt, shame, lack of understanding, or lack
of forgiveness, then we then become bitter and lack the luster to live. There is
a failure to enjoy the simple things in life. One can be negative about how
others do things or one can be positive and coach others to do better.
I prefer to be free
of my shackles, which bind me into cancerous thoughts of dealing back resentful
tactics towards those who have hurt me. We sometimes may not understand the meaning
of what happens in life or why people do certain things. What matters is
containing those cancerous thoughts before they totally consume you.
My life observances: there have been some who felt they needed to be worthy and needed others to
make them feel that way. My advise is to feel worthy in Christ and let everything fall into
place according to His will. I have
befriended people who have hurt because of past situations and they have limited
themselves to what they will do in the future. I have limited myself in
relationships because I didn’t have a good understanding or grasp of who they
are. Silent treatment is emotional abuse and people need to arise above the
hurt; even when they are being held accountable for their actions.
We all make mistakes, but that shouldn’t stop us from
reaching the best potential of who we can become. Don’t judge others by how
many friends they have or don’t have, by the things they possess or don’t
possess. Don’t be quick to end relationships out of fear, but find other
alternatives to help those relationships grow.
Cancer has made me humble in looking at life in a more
positive way. The flower that blooms provides the fragrance that kills the stench
of a dying world. A homeless person
reminds me there is always something to give away, when I have too much. A
little child that reminds me I need to keep things simple and dream big dreams
and not fall short because I limit my abilities because of fear. A person who cuts me off reminds me to slow life down and enjoy the scenery.
Forgiveness is the chemotherapy to beat cancerous thoughts.
Living life is the treadmill to breathing in new things to view positive
thoughts in a negative world. When we learn to appreciate the quality of a
person in our life as an original, then we can learn to appreciate the artistry
of their personality that provides different facets like a diamond.
Thank you mom and dad for laying a foundation of faith, so I
can walk with Him now; my love is deep and forgiveness runs wide for you both
and to Him. Thank you to my sister for she has taught me to enjoy life even
when things seem to be tough. Thank you to my grandfather, for being a living
example for me to follow, a rare art form for loving people for whom they are
and made me who I am today. I love the way he read his bible daily. Thank you to my aunt who has been there as a
spiritual conscious, even when I didn’t have the courage to really want to
listen. Thank you grandparents for showing me those relationships can work and
last, and forgiveness as well as communication is the key to loving someone. Thank you to all my family for loving me and showing me that family is important. Thank you to my
children you have taught me how to love and to be sacrificial and to remain
silent about past issues. I will always be your father and will always love
you. No matter the choices you make. My arms are always opened to embrace you. Thank you to my Misawa friends who know
when we are military brats, there is always a way to start life over and keep
close friends close. Thank you to my friends who accept me for who I am. I ask
for forgiveness for those whom I have hurt and it was unintentionally. I fed
the wrong wolf at the time.
Life is short. Do not let the here and now limit your
ability to walk on water. Love as if it was your last. Live as if you had a
million years. Do not feed into fear, but feed on what can be. Please be
encouraged about life; do not let little things interfere with relationships,
which make you grow. There is a purpose in His will and if you delight in Him,
then you will find the Confidence to walk on water. Defeat the cancerous
thoughts, which limit the potential of all you can be. Forgive as much as you
can. Be free from the guilt and remain positive in a God, who provides the
grace of all you can be. Remain strong not in yourself and lean on the false
hope that you have to control everything. Because with cancer, there is no
control and to beat cancer is to live life, love others, forgive often, and be
an original person who is genuine in honesty. Face the wind of fear and let it
lift you high, and watch the Creator make something of you. You are worthy! Let
others know your thoughts, forgive them, renew those relationships. Take it
from someone who is humbled by cancer and chooses to live life. There is a difference
in thoughts and actions. “Let Him take the Wheel” and feed the good wolf. When you feed the good wolf, you run in a good family pack that will not leave your side.
By Faith F(orging) A(ttitude) I(n) T(rusting) H(im)
