I may have an idea of what you are thinking right now.
What motivated you to pick this up and start reading? Sometimes I do not know
why there is an urge or a compelling notion to do something until after the
fact. It is my prayer you stay with me and read my miracle in progress as you
continue to read additional parts.
This journey may seem like an everyday life struggle, but
for me it impacted me so deeply I had to share this story with you. Whether you
have a belief in God or not, there is a human element to change thought
patterns in order to survive. A submissive will to change brought about being
transported through the fire in a course of five to six months. It is my prayer
you look for more insight from this blog within the next couple of weeks for the
continuation of this story.
First, a little background information to help put this
into perspective and, hopefully, God will be glorified in the process. After
all, He is the potter and I am the clay. However, in this instance, I was dull
raw iron that was placed in the fire and forged on his anvil of grace. It was
the hammer pounding life events into me, to be wielded and fashioned in providing
this testimony to you.
May I first offer an apology if you have ever been
offended by a Christian. Being a Christian is a growth process of adapting,
learning and changing who I am as a person. In reality, we are to be Christ
like. Our job is not to judge or condemn others, but to assist people in their
life journey, love them and teach them about a God whose love is greater than
any man in wanting the best for mankind.
Learning to read the bible for myself assisted me to a
better understanding. Surely, I could practice and even had good intentions.
However, it was not good enough and the storms came. There are events that came
to a head in July, 2013, that began to push me to a level I just could not
handle and I wanted to give up. I was tired of living.
In the course of these five months, loosing family, job
and in October a diagnoses of bladder cancer, I was devastated. One of the
‘causes’ of bladder cancer is smoking, and I never smoked. How could this be
possible? Keep reading and see the story unfold. The storm still rages, but
having a faith in God is a life altering experience.
The rain of fire within my life began to destroy who I was
as a person. Why did I have cancer? Why were these events taking place? The
problem was the questions and no answers. The focus was on the storm and not
what God was doing in my life. Sure, it is human nature to tend to go that
route and just become the victim to my circumstances, but in a moment things
changed.
My concept of God changed. Does He exist? Do I blame Him
and become an atheist? How does this story unfold? This event was life changing
and I want to share this journey with you, so stay tuned for next week’s Part 2
of the story.
